speak or be silent? A great interview of my life. I always thought that the best thing about it was best to say all that you feel, all that's wrong, all that you believe, but it make sense to speak when the person that you have to talk, just do not care what you can get to say , it goes in one ear and out the other what you think and even wants to hear, at least I did not see the point and choose to be silent. I choose that, perhaps for fear of confirming what is already, or fear of feeling rejected.
Fear, another big issue in my life ... We all have fears, whether the dark, spiders, or simply the future. In my case, I fear you choose, make decisions, I find it hard to decide between one thing and another, because I'm afraid to be wrong. Sounds silly, but I have fear of mistakes. Nobody is born knowing, and that as the years go by we are learning new things in the future to avoid making the mistakes we made in the past, but in my case it is not.
the typical woman I encountered the same rock over and over again, that falls and rises million times and that all those falls suffered bumps, scratches and bruises, but none made me learn, nor do I stronger, because every time I fall I feel it is the first time and it hurts me as much as if it were. I'm sick of the phrase "practice makes perfect" because in my case I do not learn anything, just makes me feel stupid when I get a to fall into the same thing when I go back to believing in them, when I feel that everything will change.
is for this reason that scares me wrong, I'm afraid of making the wrong decision, I'm afraid of getting things wrong and so I'm not choosing to believe that nothing is the best choice, believing that fate is going to do things I did not encourage me to choose. But then I think what if he had done? What if you had chosen? What if he said all at the right time? What has changed? But they are just questions that I echo your head, since I have no idea of \u200b\u200bthe answer.
I put a stop to all these things I do wrong, but I can not think that at some point and I got used and it is very strange to think that the person would make me happier is the worst for me. A thousand times I said enough, and was told a thousand times, thousand times trying to make me believe that it makes no sense, but never convinced me and so I'm always in it. STOP screaming at 4 winds, but never listening.
I know I'm not perfect, everyone makes mistakes, but when you realize you are doing something wrong you should try to change it quickly before things get worse, before it's too late. But you do not mind the time it does not matter today, tomorrow or the day after, he says he will come a time, but for me the time is TODAY, today I want to be with, today I give you my life today I want to make that gamble no matter what may happen, but am not ... Maybe tomorrow I wake up and see everything differently, maybe tomorrow is not the same, maybe tomorrow this tired, maybe tomorrow is too late ...
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